I’ve stated before that All of My Every Things has been a healing journey. It’s been one of the more emotionally raw projects I’ve ever worked on, poetry is emotionally raw. The best way I can describe it is as if I’ve opened old wounds and poured salt in them. That is what this book is. The synopsis’ opening line is true.


Here is a list of things I learned throughout finding the poems, collecting them together, and the entire process summed up in one post.

I recorded my journey of creating this book, making it, and the advertising here on my website of it (check out the category log). I have done interviews/podcasts/web shows and talked about how this was painful, but ultimately I knew I wanted to go forward with even the most painful poems I had written because though I wrote some dark things I began also seeing hopeful ones and that very first hopeful poem was when I wanted to move forward.

I could reflect at moments in time, the situations and times that inspired the brief poems, and could even see that I was trying to heal even as far back as 19 years ago. I hadn’t started therapy back then yet, but it was clear to myself I was trying to heal old wounds, newer ones for those times, and move forward.

As previously mentioned, I could remember the very situations that would inspire a snippet here or a snippet there that became poetry. Alot of dark, isolating, and painful experiences for me. I even began crying. I would cry hard when I was alone in the middle of the night. I then would question why I was crying over things that, though hurt, were from so long ago. I eventually realized I needed it. I hadn’t cried over so many things.

I had refused to let myself cry even a single tear for some things I’d went through. I refused to let my abuser or anyone that had hurt me gain even the slightest show of emotion. It would’ve been as if they won, but I realized I needed the tears. The tears weren’t for them, to give to them something, but for me. It was a great release and relief.

I began breathing. I am no longer walking the world as if I’m a husk.

After the revelations and the tears I caught myself doing things differently. I walked taller, not like I was hiding something anymore. I used to use my pain as a shield. I would justify in my hurt mind that if I had been rejected because of this reason or that then I was right… that I was how I felt, damaged goods.

I also saw myself in the bad habits of the ‘what ifs’. I’d self sabotage myself as a protective hazmat suit against the world. I began rewording things, reworking things in my mind and began to feel better. Not better for a little, but for longer and now its permanent.

I call this growth. Some call it spiritual growth and some would call it maturity. I am far from ‘completely healed’. I don’t know if I ever will be that, but I know I’m growing.


I know I’m not alone. The world doesn’t hurt, but the people in it can. These beings can leave scars across our very souls. This book is my scars, my hope, and my healing. I hope those that do read it find something somewhere within its pages for them.

I’m baring my very soul for connections in some of these poems. Know if you’ve survived something traumatic you’re not alone.

The tour begins October 29th and every day after for a month a new blogger will share new goodies! The important thing to remember is if you visit before the date at 3am central time the links will be broken, so visit on the day or after.

Oct 29

kickoff at Silver Dagger Book Tours

Nicolie-Olie’s Meanderings 

Oct 30

Mythical Books 

Haney Hayes Promotions 

Oct 31 

Luv Saving Money 

Taryn Jameson 

Nov 1

Antrim Cycle 

The Sexy Nerd ‘Revue’  

Nov 2 

Java John Z’s  

Insane Books 

Nov 3

2 chicks and a book 

Scrupulous Dreams 

Nov 4

Yearwood La Novela  

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Nov 5

Book-Lover 

Literary Gold  

Nov 6 

3 Partners in Shopping, Nana, Mommy, &, Sissy, Too!  

Bedazzled By Books  

Nov 7

Book Corner News and Reviews  

Book Fanatics 

Nov 8

Breanna Hayse Romance 

Maiden of the Pages 

Nov 9 

Inside the Insanity 

Pen Possessed  

Nov 10 

Drako’s Den 

The Bookshelf Fairy 

Nov 11

Always Love Me Some Books Blog 

Reviews and Promos by Nyx 

Blogs By Nyx  

Nov 12 

Dragon’s Den 

Craving Lovely Books 

Nov 13

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T’s Stuff  

Nov 14

Girl with Pen  

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Nov 15 

TNT Book Promotions 

A Blend of Sass and Class Blog 

T.L. Gray Blog 

Nov 16

Books, Authors, Blogs 

The Book Dragon 

Nov 17

A Wonderful World of Words 

Nov 18

Alternative-Read.com 

Fyrekatz Blog 

Nov 19

4covert2overt ☼ A Place In The Spotlight ☼ 

Word Processor, Romance, Cats, Kids and Creed 

Nov 20

LaGina 

Chapters through life 

Nov 21 

❧Defining Ways❧ 

The Scratching Post  

Nov 22

Readeropolis  

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Nov 23

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Nov 24

All the Ups and Downs 

Twisted Book Ramblings 

Nov 25

books are love 

Stormy Nights Reviewing & Bloggin’  

Nov 26

Books all things paranormal and romance 

Paranormal Romance Trance 

Nov 27 

eBook Addicts 

Midnight Book Reader 

Nov 28

Thanksgiving Day

Nov 29

Sapphyria’s Book Reviews  

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Synopsis:

This is not a normal poetry book. It is an exorcism of the soul. A poet will write about the highs and lows of their life in excruciating beautiful ways. Wrapping their pain with a ribbon to either be kept as a secret or presented. L. Bachman has gathered some of her most emotionally raw verses selected from a nineteen-year period of her life and is the first volume of complete non-fiction to date.
With bruised white knuckles, created by a humbled self-diagnosed battered and broken being on the road to healing and coping from a painful childhood. This is a display of work created to express personal struggles and surviving through periods of insomnia, moments of love, depression, anxiety, and healing.
Cover to cover you will read the inner workings of a reclusive introvert that has spent her lifetime trying to answer her own questions about who she is, what part she plays in life, and trying to heal from things she couldn’t. You will see into the mind of the woman known as L. Bachman through over thirty poems left up to the reader to interpret with an introduction by author KJ. Taylor.

Where to Buy:

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Synopsis:

This is not a normal poetry book. It is an exorcism of the soul. A poet will write about the highs and lows of their life in excruciating beautiful ways. Wrapping their pain with a ribbon to either be kept as a secret or presented. L. Bachman has gathered some of her most emotionally raw verses selected from a nineteen-year period of her life and is the first volume of complete non-fiction to date.

With bruised white knuckles, created by a humbled self-diagnosed battered and broken being on the road to healing and coping from a painful childhood. This is a display of work created to express personal struggles and surviving through periods of insomnia, moments of love, depression, anxiety, and healing. 

Cover to cover you will read the inner workings of a reclusive introvert that has spent her lifetime trying to answer her own questions about who she is, what part she plays in life, and trying to heal from things she couldn’t. You will see into the mind of the woman known as L. Bachman through over thirty poems left up to the reader to interpret with an introduction by author KJ. Taylor.

This book is only in English and currently not translated into any other languages.

Buy here:


Paperback coming soon!

Synopsis:

This is not a normal poetry book. It is an exorcism of the soul. A poet will write about the highs and lows of their life in excruciating beautiful ways. Wrapping their pain with a ribbon to either be kept as a secret or presented. L. Bachman has gathered some of her most emotionally raw verses selected from a nineteen-year period of her life and is the first volume of complete non-fiction to date.

With bruised white knuckles, created by a humbled self-diagnosed battered and broken being on the road to healing and coping from a painful childhood. This is a display of work created to express personal struggles and surviving through periods of insomnia, moments of love, depression, anxiety, and healing. 

Cover to cover you will read the inner workings of a reclusive introvert that has spent her lifetime trying to answer her own questions about who she is, what part she plays in life, and trying to heal from things she couldn’t. You will see into the mind of the woman known as L. Bachman through over thirty poems left up to the reader to interpret with an introduction by author KJ. Taylor.

This book is only in English and currently not translated into any other languages.

Buy here:


Paperback coming soon!

If you’ve been reading up on this book here on the website you’ve probably noticed it has gone through some changes. From covers to content, I’ve tinkered. I wanted to share the experience on my website the best I could without revealing too much and spoiling everything for everyone. I have become aware, with some messaging me on social media, questions. Especially, about the title of the book.

“It shouldn’t be All of my Every Things, but All of my Everything!”

“The title doesn’t sound right.”

I did this purposefully. I like playing with words. Where it’s considered wrong or not by masses or individuals. I admit it, I love words so much sometimes I play around with them. This is one of those times.

I am aware that ‘everything’ refers to ideas or objects as a group. ‘Every thing’ draws attention to something individually. I can feel the eyes twitching now. Bare with me. Let me explain more. Though the book is a collection of poems within it there are individual poems.

I find it all very funny. I’m sure the title would’ve been better with All of my Every Little Thing or All of the Things, but I wanted to play with my words. As with many of the poems inside of it, they were moments of me almost playing with my emotions to get them out. I’m not sure if any of that helps. It’s not an editing error and it’s not like I’m aware of what the title is doing. I’m just a boring lady that plays with her work at times. Laughter helps ease the tension of work and life for me.

I recommend checking out the website Quora’s article: What is the difference between “everything” and “every thing”?  by John Geare. If you’re curious about what the big difference really is with some additional information.


If you’re interested in the above mention collection of poetry, it’s in pre-orders at the time this post goes live, but may already be out if you’re reading this later than July 2019. Click the link below to go to Amazon and purchase it!

Pre-ordering now open at Amazon

As a youth, I didn’t know that most of my writing was something, an arrow aimed toward a goal. It was simply something I did. Later, with education, I learned it was soothing. That the little stories were forms of ways of self-therapy. I wrote worlds where I was accepted and liked and within the places, I created I meant something. Poetry came into my life through school, but I didn’t really start forming what would be considered poems until after I had written oodles of stories, characters, and situations that were personality and life-changing.

I didn’t write poetry to ever show anyone. I knew I was scribbling and writing little lines of things, but it was inconsistent. I had been taught that poetry usually rhymed. Of course, I’m sure they taught more, but I only remember it rhyming. Some of what I wrote had words that went together like this, some didn’t. Some lines flowed in this style and others didn’t. This didn’t make it poetry to me until I learned about free verse poetry. A type of poetry that was free from the limitations of regular rhythm or rhyming. The gears moved and things clicked, I had been writing some poetry in this style and didn’t even know it. Oh, how one can grow!

Though, at times my poetry still had rhyming at times, most times and most of what has been selected for my first collection is freestyle. For poetry, it solved a problem I had. That issue being what I was doing. So often, over the years, I found myself inspired, but not enough for an entire story or novel, but a just enough ignited to ooze out some lines that were deeply meaningful personally. Poetry came to me as quick jots of emotional expression. They held my secrets. My lines meant something to me when I scribbled them, but often no one wouldn’t know.  They couldn’t decipher the code and my secrets could be held close even though they were in plain sight.

I believe poetry is something that can be incredibly personal but also hidden. I have come to appreciate how you can read a poem and find a meaning in it that makes it personal to you as well. A short beautiful little burst of expression.


If you’re interested in the above mention collection of poetry, it’s in pre-orders at the time this post goes live, but may already be out if you’re reading this later than July 25th, 2019. Click the link below to go to Amazon and purchase it!

Pre-ordering now open at Amazon


Pre-ordering now open at Amazon

Description:

This is a collection of selected poetry written by Lynn Lesher, known as the author L Bachman covering a span of nineteen years. Considered incredibly personal works, Bachman is only known comfortable releasing her poetry into the world for others to enjoy. The subject matter varies and because of this, the hope is for the reader to take from the poetry something of their own, even if that is not what inspired the work originally by the poet.

Some poems, written in with an emotionally dark style, may be considered disturbing for some. Some poems were inspired by dark subject matter that includes, but not limited to domestic violence, grief, trauma bullying, death, and mortality. It also includes pieces that express, but not limited to strength, hope, and love.


The collection will go live August 20th, 2019! This is such an exciting time!

You will have to go to each link and read their submission requirements fully before submitting, but these are the top websites/publications paying for poetry entries!

Check out HorrorTree.com to find more information on places taking submissions and so much more!